Let us apply the 'Match of the Day(2)' test.
Did you watch it? I didn't for the first time this season. Arsenal, Chelsea, Man.Utd: no problem we were beaten in the end by better teams and were never really in with a shout. Stoke: I decided that we played well enough even though we went down to a sucker punch. My disappointment for that match had worn off by 10.30.
But Sunday night? I'm afraid not. When I fall out of love with Tottenham I fall out of love with football. I still have that little knot of anger in my stomach two days later. I couldn't bear to watch the missed chances again, or the patronizing tone of the pundits patting ambitious little Spurs on the head and hinting that they doubted us all along. Perhaps they didn't adopt this tone. Perhaps they praised the grit and determination of Everton, all qualities that they would be implying we don't have. But remember I don't know because I didn't watch it. I couldn't run the risk of any further damage to my emotional system.
I knew, like every time-served Tottenham fan, that Defoe would miss the penalty and in truth by then we didn't deserve to win. We had been sidetracked in the first half into a physical confrontation and instead of playing football we attempted to show that we are 'hard enough'. Much to the delight of Everton who clearly had more to gain than us from such a battle and possibly from an element of our own supporters keen to show that we are not soft, southern, milk sops.
However this is to lose sight of the planet for the sake of a blade of grass. As a consequence of this diversion and Crouch and Defoe missing three good chances we went in level without a goal being scored.
In the second half we cleared the 'red mist' long enough to go two up and restored some sanity to the situation. But then we lost it again by not holding onto the ball and conceding possession at every opportunity. The fought and battled for everything, made it again a question of will, manufactured a couple of chances with help from Bale and Palacios and that was that.
Harry was slow again to make the changes we needed: Jenas for Kranjcar, Keane for Crouch perhaps. In the event Jenas came on after 88 mins. I'm not sure what that was about, to save the game perhaps. The penalty was a lifeline that we didn't deserve at that point but if it had gone in I might have watched Match of the Day but with a slight sense of shame.
A point away from home is never to be dismissed and in that sense this was not a 'must win game'. But on the day it was a 'should have won game' and they are the most likely to cause the Match of the Day audience to be at least one short. My head is telling me that we have gained two points from away matches against potential rivals for top four. That for most of the first game we played well, deserved to win both and that we are still on track
Nope. It doesn't work for me at the moment. This was four points that might just be useful during our difficult run in: two lost against Villa and two gift wrapped with bows and dropped into the skip against Everton who are more likely candidates for relegation than Europe.
Defoe's goal was well taken from another fine Lennon cross to the near post and captain Dawson scored a 'Boys Own' diving header from a Kranjcar corner. The first half was the poorest in football terms I have watched in a long time and we need a fight promoter for the next Everton game. What football there was we played it. Lennon was head and shoulders above everyone else which is quite hard when you're the smallest person on the pitch. Crouch was the tallest: draw your own conclusions.
Arguments over whether Keane, Pavlyuchenko, or Jenas should have started are irrelevant when you have done enough to win the game but throw it away by playing poor football. Results, apart from Liverpool, went against us for the first time recently and the gathering pack is poised to overtake us, especially a resurgent City. We remain in the top four and have a winnable home game against Wolves which I will preview when I have recovered my composure.
So the running order on 'Match of the Day(2)' is an evaluation of the quality of the game and the audience figures a measure of my emotional state on a Saturday night. Not bad for a football highlights programme. Were we on first? I didn't watch it, as I think I told you.